Blog 4 I Am a Witness

By Nieshia Jones

 We all have a story to tell. Rather that’s the things we went through or the things we have seen in life. It’s not good to hold things in because too much build up can destroy you. God doesn’t let things happen to us for us to keep quiet. He also doesn’t allow us to go through certain situations for us to keep it all to ourselves. Because how would he get the glory for bringing you out of it? I have been through a lot in life, if I don’t talk about it, or show someone else who is going through what I went through that they can also make it out, then am I being a witness for God? A lot of times people are ashamed to talk about what they are going through, so for those of us who have been through things, we should talk about it more. We shouldn’t feel ashamed! God can use any and everyone no matter what your past is! We don’t know who we may be helping! When my grandma died, I went through depression. I mean it hit me hard! I had already lost my mom at the age of 2 and now here I am 18 years old with a 10 month old baby and just lost the person who took me in and raised me. I was devastated! I was hurt! I felt like I had no one and I felt like no one would care about what I was feeling because I was supposed to be strong. But by isolating myself, I did exactly what the devil wanted. I was in a very dark place at such a young age. I was a single mom, and I knew then that my daughter needed me. So, when I question God on why I got pregnant? Why was everyone leaving me? Why? Why? As me being young I didn’t understand BUT now I know God did everything for a reason. He knew once my grandma had died that I would need someone who depended on me SO I could live to continue my purpose! My daughter is my why! Why I didn’t give up! Why I am here today! So, we shouldn’t question God no matter what the situation is because he always knows best! We have to know what God has and want for us is so much better than what we could even imagine for ourselves! I used to be scared to talk about the things I been through and the things that happened to me because I was afraid of how people would look at me. But once I knew it could save someone else then I started talking about all my challenges so people can see where I am today and know they can overcome whatever they face! I don’t know if you can tell just by looking at me, but I am a survivor. Depression didn’t take me! Suicidal thoughts didn’t take me! Domestic violence didn’t take me! Grief didn’t take me! I am here to tell you that your current situation is not your final destination! It is only a season. Everyone has a season where they have struggles or challenges that they are facing. Just know it won’t last always! I am 30 years old, I am married to my wonderful husband Richard, I have four beautiful kids, I work full time, I will be graduating JSU next year with Bachelor of Business Administration and I made the dean’s list! Life is so good for me! If you had told me a couple of years ago that I would have this life I probably would have laughed because it was that bad! But I am a witness, and I can tell you to keep living! Keep pushing! Keep praying! Keep going! Don’t give up! It gets better! 

Here are some things I would like to leave you with.

1. It is okay NOT to be okay!
2. You don’t have to be strong all the time!
3. Things will turn around and get better!
4. Keep it in mind that you have already WON! 

Proverbs 14:25

“A truthful witness saves lives, but one who breathes out lies is deceitful.”

John 3:16

“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.”

Matthew 5:16

“In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.”